Who am I

I'm not really sure why I'm writing this but I have a lot on my mind and want to try and get some out of my mind.

I wear a lot of different "hats" in my life. Sometimes I'm the guy everyone can turn to and sometimes I'm a stoner and sometimes I'm the stereotypical fat guy who just eats all day and sometimes I'm the struggling writer and sometimes I'm douche bag and sometimes I'm a perv and sometimes I'm the shy guy who wishes he could ask out the girl of his dreams and sometimes I don't know who I am...

All I know is that at this very moment I'm laying in bed with my hand down my pants trying to not let the fact that my life SUCKS get to me to much.

Though as I finish this post I realize that maybe it already has...

I wish I had some weed.

I have a problem

I'm stoned again. I've been eating nothing but crap since my diet "restarted" a few days ago. Fortunately I'm out of weed. So maybe tomorrow I can get back on track, since I won't be able to get anymore pot until February.

Here's hoping for a brighter tomorrow because today is filled with a lot of darkness.

I'm sorry

It's been a long time since I posted, and if there's anyone out there reading this I'm sorry that I've been neglecting both this blog and my diet.

For the past month all I've been doing is smoking a lot of pot and eating a lot of crap (damn munchies).

Tomorrow is December 1st and it's time to get my shit together. So here's to a new new beginning, and here's hoping to this being the last beginning.

Break Time

I'm going on vacation tomorrow so I'm gonna take a break from the diet. I'm not going to go crazy but if I sit around counting points I won't have as good a time.

Going Well

It's been a couple of days since I start weight watchers and it's been pretty good so far. The biggest problem I'm having is that I'm eating constantly. While I don't mind the eating it just doesn't make sense that eating like this will help me lose weight. I know it will it's just gonna take some getting used to.

I weigh in on Sunday so I'll see in a few days how things are going

Is this the end...

I've hit the point were I just don't feel like what I'm doing is working. So I'm changing plans. I'm now using weight watchers to help me. Since I know their plan has worked for others, it should be able to work for me as well.

Is this the end for me? HELL NO!! This is just a new beginning

Sick

I have a wicked cold and eating for some reason usually makes me feel better. This time it did not...

Weight In

Gonna take a break from the scale. I'm tired of seeing it not move. So no weight in this week. We'll see if I'm up to it next week.

Calories 9/20-9/26

Frustrated

Haven't posted in awhile so I thought I should.

I'm walking more and lifting more, but I still am seeing no change. It's beginning to get very frustrating. I'm thinking of trying out weight watchers to see if that makes a difference, but unfortunately I'm not optimistic.

Home or away

Doing a lot of eating out this week. So I'm going to have to watch what I eat while I'm at these places.

I also bought 2 15 pound weights today and worked out a little with them. It felt really good.

Calories 9/13-9/19

Shrimp genocide

Red lobster yesterday was great. My friends and I went and ate oodles of shrimp and I stayed below my calorie count. It was also convenient that my lose it app knew the calorie count for everything I ate.

Did some exercising today and am now relaxing and watching Wall Street. I'd say this weekend has been pretty good for me.

Irish Stew and lots of shrimp

Yesterday was the 1/2 to St. Patricks day party at my local Pub and I went a little crazy. I ate a lot and drank a LOT. I know the exercising is helping, but I still feel kinda lousy about.

It also doesn't help that I'm going out tonight to Red Lobster for endless shrimp either. At least shrimp are not a lot of calories.

Vitamins and soreness

Worked out again today. Did more then I did on Sunday and I'm not even half as sore as I was then.

I've also started taking a multivitamin and a fiber supplement. I've heard they're important to stay healthy, and I know they can't hurt.

Calories 9/6-9/12

NYC

Still sore from working out on Sunday. I went to hard to fast. I plan on working out tomorrow as long as my legs aren't still throbbing.

I'm getting plenty of exercise today. I went to the city (for those of you not in north Jersey I mean New York) and have been walking around all day. I'm in the museum of natural history now and am in quite a bit of pain, but it's that oh so good pain again.

Sore

I'm sore from working out, but it's sore in the best way possible

Epiphany

So I guess its been pretty obvious the last couple of weeks that I've been "falling off the wagon". Its just been really hard to not be able to see a definitive change through all the hard work I've been doing. That however is all gonna change. I had an epiphany this morning. I can't really explain it but I just kinda feel like I'm back in the game all of a sudden, and honestly my biggest problem right now is beer. Which I am going to have to cut out of my life. This Friday I'm going to be going to this 1/2 way to St Patrick's day party, which I'm obviously going to drink a lot at, but after that no more beer until Halloween.

However, I have started exercising. Its raining today so no walking but I attempted a few push-ups, did some lifting at home. It is a step in the right direction if nothing else.

Calories 8/30-9/5